The Monster You Created.

I am a victim of abuse. I have been physically, sexually, and emotionally abused by almost EVERYONE in my family. Even a few boyfriends have pushed me around.

As a child my Father physically and emotionally abused me. He would beat me, throw things, and say unspeakable and hateful things. He also killed his girlfriend in front of me to "teach me a lesson" at only the age of three years old.

My Mother, she was a teen Mother. Too young to take care of a child, for she was still a child herself. Plus, on top of that the Father for her baby was twenty-one and she was but seventeen years old. She neglected me during my childhood, and finally social services became involved.

My Cousin, Christoph, is a sick fool. He is a few years older than I, and until two summers ago he'd touch me, pinning me down and stifling my screams. He told me it was a game, we were playing doctor, but that game was one that I did not like. He'd make me touch him also, and if I refused he'd beat me and lock me in my closet.

I have suffered from many traumatic experiences, some that I have never spoken of. I have never brought up my cousin until now, except for when my younger cousins, Sam and Lex, would talk to me about it. Telling me he did the same to them. I am seventeen, the eldest. Lex just turned thirteen this month, she is the youngest. All of us had been sexually harrassed by our older half Cousin, Christoph. He is twenty years old.

I want to now, stop abuse of all forms towards children. I hate to know that there are many children suffering from what I suffered from in my childhood.