Teen Mothers dealing with vilance

Well I will begin with, When I was 18 I graduated from high school, two months after I got with my now soon to be ex-husband. He is 10 years older than me and I didn't care... My mother and everyone that I was close to warned me not to get with him but of course I didn't listen to them cause I thought I Knew everything... But I have now realized I didn't! We had only been together about 3 months and I found out that I was pregnant. I thought omg what is going on... I was supposed to start school in 2 weeks and now I felt I couldn't... The Abuse didn't start until after I found out I was with my daughter.

It started out with just putting me down all the time then it led to him throwing me up against a wall and not even caring that I was pregnant with our child. Also in this whole ordeal I find out that he is an alcoholic and drug abuser. I left him off and on during my pregnancy. He would call and tell me the same thing over and over... I'm Sorry, It won't happen again, I love you. And of course I would go back to him... Well after I had my baby girl about 6 months after I left him for 6 months... He then told me all kinds of lies. Told me he quit drinking and drugs... So I went back... Then we got married in 07 and it still hadn't changed... I was so scared to leave him at this point cause he told me that if I left him he would hurt me and my family. And my mom and I have always been best friends. So of course I put a smile on and did as he said... He never kept a job my family helped me with what they could. But he always put the fault onto me! I finally left him on the 25 of December... Christmas morning... their is so much more to this story but its hard to really explain... In the first month of being married we found out he had a 6 year old daughter he didn't know about we got custody of her, he lost her when I left him... But its just so hard cause you know I was a new mom never did I think t the age of 20 that I would be taking care of a 18 month old and a 6 year old. But thats not what bothered me. His addictions were so much more important to him then the 3 of us that he bought the kids and I nothing for Christmas... It was his first real one with both of his kids and he didn't care... So after I left him I allowed him to see my daughter 2 times and after the second time he was trying to get back with me and tell me more lies. I blew him off and the next thing you know he was calling my phone leaving me messages that he was going to kill me and my family. Then parked 3 miles away from my moms house walked their broke in. So to say this for me leaving a year ago... I have taken care of me and my daughter and I have found someone who cares the right way about me and thats that... But I just want to help others who are going threw the same thing or some thing like what I have went threw so they know they don't have to deal with it all... If you have any questions or want to know more about my story cause their is so much more. PLEASE let me know...